Living in the HERE and NOW

I can't believe it has been over a month since I have blogged. I thought I would write a thought or two about how I am currently feeling. I realise more and more each day how much I have to be grateful for. It is so easy to want more (espeically living in such an affluent area), but lately I have been particulary grateful for my life just the way it is. I know the Lord has a plan for my life and as I allow him to work his plan and take my control issues out of the equation - I find peace. As most of you know, I want another baby more than anything in the world. But can I just tell you that as I have let go of that - I have been able to enjoy Nathan and Cheyenne even more. I often think at times that it can't be possible for me to enjoy them anymore than I already do -but then I find that I can. I already eat, sleep and breathe these children and still want more. I kiss them to do death and miss them when I am away from them for any period of time. But lately, I have been sooooo in the moment with them. I love living in the moment. I am enjoying being in the moment with my personal life as well. I have been excerising, changing mine and my families nutritional habits, and reading. I feel so great. Anyway, I am just so thankful for the gospel and what it teaches me about allowing the Lord to guide me - and by letting go - I can find true peace in the hear and now. I have found that and could not be grateful.