My Sad Heart

This picture brought me comfort in a time of need.

My heart is so sad today. I found out that my friend Robin who has been battling cancer (Leukemia) for 2 years - may have lost the battle. Unless there is a MIRACLE (which I do believe in) she has been told she has 3-6 months left.

Robin's story has changed my life. She has been so gracious to share her battle and fight for life with us through her website at www.robingroff.com.

She has written daily journal entries and shared her thoughts even in her darkest moments. I have been so impressed with her faith, her sense of humor through it all, and her drive to fight. This person, my friend Robin is such a beautiful person (both on the outside and the inside). She is so funny and thoughtful and loveable. We met when we were both HUGELY pregnant with our first borns. We literally met two weeks before Robin had Hailey and then I had Nathan two weeks later.

And we have been friends ever since. We helped each other figure out what the heck we were supposed to do with these little babies - well....she helped me....really she had it all figured out.

I know now why the Lord gave me Robin. Her experiences have taught me so much - they have literally changed my life. Because of Robin - I try really, really hard to live in the moment, not to sweat the small stuff, and to never take anything for granted. When I want to complain about giving the kids a bath or changing another diaper - I remember that Robin wishes she could be doing that. It is sad that it takes this happening to Robin for me to "GET IT".

I am so grateful for the knowledge that she and I share (through the gospel of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints) that Families can be together forever. I know that our time on this earth is short in comparison to Eternity. Robins journey may end sooner than ours -but in the blink of an eye - we will all cross the veil and be reunited with our families. I am so grateful for this knowledge that our seperation and more importantly her seperation from her daughter and husband is just for a short time. Robins wonderful family and bunches of friends will keep Hailey's memory of her Mother alive until she can be reunited with her again. I am talking as if she has passed -but I AM hopeful that a miracle will occur -but if not, I guess I am just preparing myself.

I love you Robin! I am so grateful for your friendship and love. You are truly an inspiration and you are my hero. I am praying for a Miracle. Your father in Heaven loves you and is mindful of all things. May your heart be comforted is my prayer for you. And if it is God's will may you please be healed. Lots of Love! Janell